Esther is one of my favorite women of the Bible, not because she saved her people from genocide but more because she was scared and insecure. She’s like the girl Moses. Throughout her story it’s evident she doesn’t trust herself. She is faithfully obedient to whoever is in charge, first Mordecai, her cousin, and then the eunuch in the palace who is in charge of the women competing for the king’s heart. When it does come time for her to step up, Esther pulls a Moses and shrinks in fear and self-doubt. She is afraid of death and doubts her relationship with the king.
I don’t know about everyone else, but I deal with insecurity all the time. It has definitely gotten easier as I’ve grown older and in Christ, but it is still a struggle, and I’m not sure if it will ever completely go away. I think that is what makes Esther so great. She is a real woman who made a difference for God. She had insecurity and fear just like the rest of us, but God still was able to use her to save a nation because she was willing to put her trust in Him.
I encourage you to read the book of Esther, multiple times. I’m going to be writing more about her, because there is more to her story. She makes me feel more comfortable in my own skin and reassures me that God is in control, not my fear.
much love–char
